Hello, Beautiful people.
I hope you have all been happy and healthy.
On New Year's Eve, I decided I was building a new year and a new life. February was patchy (someone tried very hard to make things difficult for me), but that has mostly calmed down. Mom was in the hospital for two days last week, discovering she was a Diabetic and leanring to deal with that. Her blood sugars actually got frighteningly high. Normal for an adult is 80- 120 mg/dl. Diabetic coma can set in around 600 mg/dl. Her blood sugars got up to 593 mg/dl. So, yes, a scare. But she is out of the hospital and thankfully as a nurse, she has the knowledge of what is needed next, so she can get stable.
When I look back at the goals I wrote down as "hopes" last January (2011), I can see that so many of them are coming true. Even personal, private hopes that I had. Wow. I am grateful.
Last year I saw the movie. "How Do You Know?" It stars Reese Witherspoon, Jack Nicholson, Paul Rudd and Owen Wilson. I don't want to ruin the movie for anyone, but there is a scene in which one of the main characters, confused about certain choices in her life, thinks she will see a psychiatrist, but chickens out just as it is her turn to be seen. As she is leaving the office, she decides to ask the psychiatrist just one question. The lines from the movie are below. But I have to tell you that hearing this dialogue really sparked something in me. It planted a seed. I sitll care about what other people want. Very much. But I am starting also to learn to define what I want- and to learn how to ask for it.
Here are the lines:
Lisa: So I was just wondering if there was one general thing that you've found over the years to be generally true in a general way that would help anyone in any situation?
Psychiatrist: That's a great question, yes, I would say figure out what you want, and learn how to ask for it.
Lisa: OK. Those are both really hard.
She's right- it's not as easy as it sounds. And it took me 48 years to think I deserved to even consider very intently all that I want. And to be brave enough to ask for it.
Now,
I am wondering. I would like to hope WITH you and FOR you that you wonderful people are moving towards what you really, really want to see happen in your own lives, your own family, your own hearts or minds or bodies. I'd like to pray for you, root for you, celebrate with you. If you want to share it here, great. If you want to share it more privately, great. But one thing I want in 2012 is to partner with people I love to see if I cannot be a cheerleader for you, for what you want, hope and dream. I would LOVE to know what hopes are in your heart.
Be happy- Lisa
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